in 2013 I made 4 suicide attempts. the last attempt was mid november 2013. I consumed 8 full bottles of prescription medications given to treat PTSD and consumed a 5th of jack. Nothing worked. In January of 2014 I smoked Marijuana for the 1st time. I have not made an attempt since. In may 2014 I grew tired of being outcast by my usage. I felt dirty and in my eyes I was a low life scumbag. So I quit. by June 1st my wife was stranded 700 miles away from home and I was looking for the closest rope or gun to kill myself with. I damned my wife to hell and refused to come home. My PTSD makes me do and say and act in horrible ways.
i avoid the cure while hospitals are stuffing me with harmful drugs that so far for me has caused extreme suicidal actions, 2 strokes, and 7 months of seizures.