Enforce the judicial system laws and bring my children back home because I have been fighting to regain custody for 5yrs

I have been struggling to regain custody of my 3 children for 5 yrs. I haven't been making the best choices in life and I didn't realize it until the pressures of the case started weighing down on me. I'm in a deep depression because i worry about their well being all the time as they are in foster care with people I do not know. Thus makes it harder to remain focus on my goal of reunification because I worry about what's going on inside the home. I'm missing out on the best part of their life and it's hurts. Birthdays, holidays, school homework help, and I realize that people can change when they wake up. I'm one of those people who realize where I went wrong and I also recognize my growth. Help stop the division from abusing their power. Please help bring my girls bk home president Obama