Help me to still alive!

My name is Sonia Salgado Orozco, I am a mother of five cute babies, three of them'm losing every day by not fulfilling what I cps pide.Tengo a drug problem and want to change and be the person and mother who went before, I love my kids are everything to me and without them I feel empty without love, no direction, no reason to continue living, empty and dead inside. From the beginning I have been willing to do the service, but cps refuses and tells me almost everything else, my lawyer will not help me, sometimes I do not understand because I do not speak the language and get upset when I do not understand. I am that they have failed my children again and again, but I want exicarle in my letter what happens: I am a single mother, and do not receive government assistance, because I do not ha