I am a Chinese, I am now in Japan, but I am very afraid to return to China,there can not survive no human rights,help me

I am a Chinese, I am now in Japan, but I am very afraid to return to China, there can not be life, no human rights, can not survive. Tianjin, China, the explosion for me and my family have a great impact. Please allow me to be able to have been living in the United States or Japan go, thank you. Foreign countries have visa restrictions for Chinese people, every time I think of life in China have nightmares. I want to be a common American or Japanese citizens. I donot want to go back to China.i am scared of China.In China, i will to die.help me!Please!Please!Please!