I'm 29 year old that re deaf that I can use the hands signs but already learned to use lip reads to tlk w my hearing kid

I'm 29 yr old and deaf too since 6 month from been birth hearing. And go to deaf shool for my childhood edcations until i finished school there to have family but now on I had 3 previously kids that I envy them for my life that I wanted to find job to support them on my own than letting family to custody them for me if I don't find jobs to work than depending on social security incomes every monthly wont support my kids very well that's why I'm begging u to get jobs growing to get me go back to work for goods so I can get my kids back alike where they supposed to be with real mothers or fathers instead their own parents or family to take custody of them... If I get job then I won't give up on myself and my kids to keep working until my health hits me to stop working in futures..